My name is Jessica but pretty much everyone that knows me calls me Jess... I am just about 23 on the 6th of October and a mommy to the most perfect / handsome little 2 y/o!!
Obviously I am on a weight loss journey to go from "the fat chick" to "the fit chick"... I'm a skinny-girl-wanna-be... When I say skinny I do not mean bones showing, unhealthy looking skinny... My ideal weight would be 130 lbs but I will settle for 150 at the end of the first part of my journey!
I recently joined a bet... it is called dietbet.com... Basically you join a "game" and the bets range from $15 to $100 a game... The game is to lose 4% of your starting weight in 28 days (4 weeks)... My bet starts the 30th of Sept. and Ends the 27th of Oct... They do credit card or paypal for payments... All you do is pay the bet and you're in the game as soon as you submit your initial weigh-in photos... One of you on the scale in airport attire clothing and the other of the weight on said that you are standing on showing your feet with a designated word they provide you with.. The word just goes on an index card and is placed on the floor in front of the scale and captured in the pic... They then decide if you can join making sure there is no cheating! If you complete it you get your money back plus extra divided from people that didn't meet the goal of 4%! Sooo... yeah... fun times!
Oh yeah... My weigh in is at 221.2 lbs and I need to 212.8 by the 27th of October... FINGERS CA-ROSSED!!
So with my first challenge all explained I could prob. tell you all about me! :) ?!?! If ya wanna know ?!?!?!
1 biological little sis, 3 half - older sisters, and 1 half - older brother...
Both parents come from 6+ kids families as well... But none of my siblings have more than 2 a piece... I have 4 nephews and 3 nieces... and a TON of cousins!!! My oldest sister is in her 40's and my youngest is 21, about... My dad was in his early 40's and mom in her early 30's when my littler sister and I were born...
The WHOLE ENTIRE reason I became motivated to change my life was because on April 4th, 2012... Totally not prepared in any way shape or form my world changed forever! Still not excepting of it 1.5 years later, either... I talk to my dad everyday and when I hadn't heard from him/him answer my calls I reached out to my siblings to see if they had heard... they didn't... he was supposed to be to work at 9 that night but 99% of the time he was there by 8:30... We called about 8:45 and he wasn't there... even his work found that odd... he was a maintenance man at a Casino with my uncle also... My uncle and a couple other co-workers went out in the parking lot looking for him to see if he was in or sleeping in his car which he tended to do alot... He wasn't there... It was after 9 and he wasn't there... I live 2.5 hours from him... one sister lives 1.5 hours away, one in Georgia, the other just left that morning for Vacation... and we weren't sending my little sister down to check his house for the fact of her being the one finding him or something is to much to put her through... or anyone! My uncle called my dad's best friend and said he would meet him at my dad's house... My dad's work was about 25 min. away... My dad's friend went down there and his vehicles were there but dad wasn't anywhere to be seen... and his house was locked... My dad's friend called my uncle and said he couldn't break into the house cause he didn't want to find him that way... my uncle told him he had to for sake of saving his life if something was wrong... Mind you the police were already called and also on the way and arrived not long after my dad's friend... They were the ones to actually open the house door...I was on the phone with my sister when she said she had to go cause my uncle was calling (10:13 pm) My older sister that lives 1.5 hours away called me back at 10:16 pm and I was just starting down to my hometown... I said I would start down... if everything was fine I would turn around, if not I was on my way already... She called me at 10:16 that night... He was gone... My dad was dead.... Pronounced dead at 9:48 pm...
He had a massive heart attack just one month after his 64th b'day...
You know that feeling you get in your stomach right right before you need to do a speech, or go into surgery, or something VERY nerve wrecking... That was my stomach... I pulled over on the side of the road and cried right on the highway... I didn't even think this was AT ALL close to happening... It wasn't right... I had just talked to him at 8 pm the night before....
The person that anchored us all was gone... WTF!!! The person I never imagined my life without... Your daddy is your super hero... they DON'T die... How is he dead... I screamed, swore, yelling everything and called God every name in the book... It wasn't going to bring my dad back... We had to try to continue a life without him... He wasn't going to walk me down the isle... He wasn't going to watch his grandson grow up (He was 8 months at the time) and become his little wrestler he always wanted... He wasn't going to walk my little sister down the isle... He would never meet any of her future children! Just doesn't make sense!
Here we are over a year later... Still going but not a day goes by that we aren't missing something... Just a void of memories... He had my heart the day I was born... I now hold him in my heart everyday... Still try to talk to him everyday... Picture what he would be doing... Fixing some lawn-mower or going to an auction up there I'm sure... He doesn't hurt anymore... He's stress-free...
THAT' was my wake up call... He was over-weight slightly, smoked, drank Mtn. Dew religiously... I don't smoke or drink pop but I am over-weight... My grandma had heart issues as well... She passed a few months before my dad... so 2012 was a SHIT year! And the year before my mom went into a diabetic coma and we almost lost her!! Took a month in the hospital before she was able to come home... Knowing how serious heart problems are in my family is what motivates me alot... #1 cause of death in women is heart disease... I don't want to be a statistic in that b.s.! I want to watch my son grow and his kids grow...
Sorry this has turned sooooooo long if you've made it this far! It's a book! But that's my intro I guess... Sooo I really hope you all will join me on this journey!! You can like my FB page as well if you want!
That's my little intro... sure I forgot something that I will add in a later post but yeah... Smile! <3
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